This won’t be the most eloquent post, but I’ve been needing to word vomit this for a while now. I’ve long felt like I was “god-bothered,” meaning I felt the influence of gods…everywhere. And I find that sometimes that I can’t even discern who. It just feels like a flurry of energy that can’t easily be waded through. Part of this is probably my ADHD, but that doesn’t make it any less my experience.
This has led me to an interesting place recently. I’ve been toying with the idea for quite awhile, but I’ve finally decided I wanna go through with it. I want to set up a series of shrines for the different deities from across cultures that have influenced me in some way over time. I’ll still keep individual shrine spaces for Na Dé Ocus Andé, but I want a shrine for the Θεοί, for the Netjeru, one for the Æsir and Vanir, and a space just for Ganesha.
At one point in my spiritual journey, a group leader from a group I’ve since left made a comment that I should give away the accoutrements of the paths I’ve followed that weren’t specifically Gaelic purely because they weren’t Gaelic. In retrospect, I see that evangelical-adjacent bullshit it is. But it left a lasting impact.
Now, I’ve decided to do what I’ve always wanted to do. My path remains Gaelic focused, but it ridiculous to think that I can’t or shouldn’t honors the figures of other cultures despite the role they played, even passively, that led me to where I am today. I’m tired of hiding parts of myself away, so what better time to stop than now?